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To Meds? Or . . . Not to Meds?

beetle bailey
5 min readJul 23, 2019

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So, I came across this in a friend’s Facebook — a share from @ThePsychologyBabes (also on Facebook):

Barbara can go fuck herself.

My reply to my friend was enthusiastic and, I hope, well thought-out. Possibly helpful to someone who sees that meme but sees it, perhaps, from a different angle, as I do. Or is capable of seeing it from another angle.

In my reply, I said (with editing for typos and addition for clarity):

THIS. Only my revelation on that front was the REVERSE. I’m — according to my medical professionals — fantastically difficult and tricky to medicate. Everything I’ve ever been on, with the exception of ONE mood stabilizer, either hasn’t worked, or only works for a every limited time (less than six months). Some of them changed my behavior and responses so drastically that in the aftermath, after taking myself off them, with a “clearer” head, I could recognize, say, that NO, a mood-stabilizer should not shift my mood and personality so drastically that burning down my apartment building with me and everyone in it seems like a good and merciful idea.

Not long after that, I stopped with the meds and focused on counseling. DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) and CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). Management that’s firmly in my conscious hands, rather than in my brain chemicals. I didn’t like having no warning I was moving into…

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beetle bailey
beetle bailey

Written by beetle bailey

Just a bug with progressive values, opinions, and Interwebz. Black, atheist, AuDHD, Âû. A-awesome. PROUDLY a transmasc coleoptera. Be warned: I clap back.

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